i miss my life there somehow, esp coming back 2 a fast-paced, stressful, comparatively more unhealthy singapore lifestyle. i miss janet too... and i guess i miss independance, not having so many concerns and conflicts with family and friends. but then i look at myself, and tell myself i can't just run away from bad stuff or tough stuff. it may be hard to handle such conflicts, to deal with pain and stress again, yet this is life. it makes me a person. it is how God molds me and breaks me and makes me His instrument.
i'm glad i'm back here. :)
and once again sorry, especially to louis and to xuan, i think i had a poor attitude in worship practice just now. please forgive me, my old self crops up unexpectedly. i'm struggling to learn humility and submission, and thank you for walking through this time with me! i couldn't ask for a more understanding group of friends to painstakingly walk with me through this journey.
an encouragement to xuan, to racheal: you have surprised me from the day i first heard you play. i've been away only, wat, 5 months max, and there you two are, doing a great job! of course, there's loads more to improve on, i do have much more to improve on too. so have confidence in your playing! have questions, not sure, definitely can ask. sometimes, though, it can also be good to try it out yourself. no harm making mistakes, we all learn from them. ok? develop a style, a set of patterns that you can be comfortable with, but at the same time learn not to stick to the comfortable, but to develop more, to pick up different styles. jiayou for God's ministry!!!
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