was jus talking to alvin on msn, and i'd like 2 encourage us all 2 fast n pray. because i've been having this feeling during my europe trip, and alvin jus told me that rev james singh also said the same thing on sat...
share some stuff with u. u all noe i've been on this month long trip to europe (like duh, how many times have i mentioned it? :P) one thing that's really been great for me is how God has drawn me back closer 2 Him. He makes me long to seek Him, and i can really feel excitement when i spend time with Him. it's something i haven't been able 2 feel (or maybe never really felt?), and something i have never been able to persist on before. maybe it's too many distractions (especially with a laptop on 24/7). so this trip, there's so much time in between, and i've had so much more time 2 seek God.
and, i've just had 2 trust Him. the trip wasn't smooth all the way, bad things happened, and when there's no one else, u realise that that's not true! God is here. and i could just revel in His presence... and i'm still learning to trust Him, but He's been the most wonderfully patient teacher u could ever have... :) i've had so much time to spend with God and i'm not tired of it at all! in fact, i'd rather have more. i desire after God now, really and truly. i am no longer afraid to say i love Him and not really mean it.
ok, back to the fast and pray thing. so i was in rome, and there's this Holy Stairs (check out http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Scala_Sancta_(Holy_Stairs). It's a catholic church, but we both believe in the salvation of Christ. So i ascended the stairs kneeling, praying on every step. it was powerful. the moment i knelt i could feel God's powerful presence. some people take it as a ritualistic thing, but no, it was spiritual. there are 28 steps, and it was really tiring (and painful to the knees...), but each of the steps i knelt and said a prayer. i prayed for the youth, for both guys n gals, for the younger ones, for the church. i prayed for revival, and i prayed for God's mercy and forgiveness. i prayed in tongues, and God was just amazing. after that, i felt this inside me to fast and pray for what i had prayed to God earlier. so the next morning i did so, i fasted and prayed. but after that there was this feeling that it was not enough (except i naughtily ignored it). until jus now when i talked with alvin. n i now noe i have to fast and pray. for the individuals in our youth. i'm taking this step of faith, and i would like to see not jus me doing so.
as u noe, there's very little i can do away from u all. i'm so exciting to hear changes happening in church, and i really miss being there, being part of it. and then i start to realise, i AM part of it. by praying and fasting, and seeking the Lord, no matter where i am, i have faith He will hear our prayers. He has a vision, and He has the power to make things happen; it is us who have to be sincere in seeking it, it is us to have to be ready physically and spiritually to receive. even though there are downsides, there are disappointments now, all i can say and do is to trust in God wholeheartedly, to lead the lost sheep back, to raise more young people up.
let us pray. leaders of the youth ministry, let us pray. let us intercede for our youth, for ourselves, for our church. and in God's time, in His amazing way, He will pour out upon us fresh fire!
